it's my bestfriend's wedding day

Today is a very special day for my bestfriend, Earl Rogelio for
he is now exchanging vows to his lifetime partner, Roxanne.

He used to be my "bestfriend" for quite a long time but when we have already separated ways, we we're no longer in good terms. I tried to reach out for him but to no avail. He didn't even bother to accept my friend's request so for the last time I did took the courage again to greet him and his wife, Roxanne, on their very special day.

Truly, God is the best match maker. Even before I knew in my heart that our relationship won't last and I even told him that Roxanne will be his girlfriend and will be his wife soon and I was not mistaken, it did come true. I'm very happy for them.

To Earl and Roxanne, though it may be 0.01% percent you'll pass by this blog, I want you to know that I'm really blessed and happy for the both of you. Now that you are no longer two but one with the new level of love and commitment, I pray that God will always be the center of your relationship. May God continue to enrich your lives as you keep on being a blessing to others. God bless you more and more.

God bless Earl and Roxanne. Mabuhay ang bagong kasal!

final verdict

today I've felt a mixed of disappointed but highly motivated.

I''ve finally received my final verdict - final performance evaluation and it was not really good. I've failed the expectations of being a developer and as a result I will not be included for any salary adjustments. As I was walking home, these things keep lingering on my mind. At first, I was saddened and reflect on how I became like these. What's happening to me? Am I losing the confidence? I can still remember those times that I can speak at the top of my voice to the CEO of the company of which I am employed just because of his project mismanagement. And now, here I am, I am wearing the same shoes. I was not reprimanded, the final decision was delivered very well by my manager/team leader. I've felt I wanna melt down like wax or an ice cream under the scorching heat of the noonday sun, but unfortunately I was not.

Thank God He is the real source of strength, joy and peace. I know He is speaking a lot to me regarding my career development. It's high time for me to sit down, read books, practice programming, memorize and internalize on programming technicalities. Gone were the time that I became complacent, coming to office with one single code on my hand, with simple "select; MySQL statement" and with 'model-one' approach on coding.

I've realized time has past by, I can no longer bring back the time. All I have is the present because I cannot take hold of the future I don't know what could happen then, I can't even own it. Only God can. Now what I have to do is to find myself excelling on every area of my endeavor.

Here is my short-term goals:

1. finish SS exam until friday this week.

2. learn jquery and practice it in 1 week

3. learn silverstripe: advanced level in 2 weeks

4. learn programming design & patterns (e.g factory pattern)

How about the long term goals:

1. enroll at informatics about PHP and MySQL (Target Feb 2012)

2. enroll and passed the PHP Proficiency Exam (Target: December 2013)

"Wisdom is supreme; therefore get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, get understanding." - Proverbs 4:7

over a cup of coffee

it's been so long since my last post, hehehe. really get tired in updating my blog, actually no time at all.

i just wrote today to share a friend's poem. here it goes:

"There are things better left unsaid

As flowers bloom in season

But they say, God is not time-bounded

And He has His own reason.

There are things better left undone

Like our bed as we rise and shine

But they say, one must know

God's signal Yes or No but wait is fine.

There are things better left unanswered

Like a question tattooed on our face

But they say, our thoughts are not like the Father's

And we tend not to see His grace.

There are better things that we know Unsaid, unanswered, undone

But God says, watch as I overflow My grace to you My son. "

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