Sunday, May 22, 2011

watch me

Tomorrow is another big day for me because I will be interviewed and have my examination for a new job. I should let go of the fear and start to believe in God and in myself that I can do it. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13 and that is part of my meditation today.

It is my prayer that I won't be discouraged tomorrow Lord. I know I am good just like the way you look at me. I can do this through your help. I'll just give my best and thank You Lord that You'll take care of the rest.

Till my next post...


Tuesday, May 10, 2011

may ilaw pala

Minsan di ko na na-appreciate ung mga bagay na nasa paligid ko. siguro kasi madalas ko sila makita at andyan lang sila talaga. nuong meron pa akong work, minsan umuwi ako ng bahay. nakita ko ang daming binili ng asawa ko na mga ilaw. nagalit ako sabi ko dahil ang daming gastos. kung ano-ano ang binili. pero ngayon na nandito ako sa bahay, na-appreciate ko ung ilaw na binili niya. ang ganda pala lalo na pag naglaptop ka ang linaw ng tingin. kitang- kita ko ang mga tinatype ko.

Salamat sa Lord dahil unti-unti niyang binabago ang buhay ko dito sa bahay. 2 months na rin akong walang work pero meron pala inaayos ang Lord sa puso ko. ano pa kaya ang aayusin niya? nakakatuwa naman Siya, siguro hinahanda Niya ako para sa isang mas malaking blessing. salamat sa iyo Panginoon.

Inaantok na ako pero pilitin ko pa maaral ung XML para bukas application na lang. Salamat Lord nakakabalik na ako sa programming.



Monday, May 9, 2011

looking for a job (part 2)

I' m getting better in my recovery.... Yehey... I asked the Lord why it's taking so long for me to get a new job only to find out that I was not that prepared. One of the employers whom I have applied sent me an email for the copy of my exam. He hand to me the instructions and as I am reading it I asked myself, "What if these questions or this exam was given to me during my job interview? Can I answer it?" I don't think I can. I have forgotten the programming because the latest job that I have is not more on programming but it is more on managing people. I thank God I was not put to shame - thank You Lord.

Now I know I need to get back on reviewing my programming lessons. I need to prepare just like an athlete. It takes time to prepare but its worth paying the cost. Really, God knows what is best.

I am going to market today to buy some stuff. Later, I'll continue studying AJAX and XML. Then next would be PHP. Then after VLS (Vacation Learning School) at church, I am now ready to land on my new job.

I have recalled the life of Job and I find it similar to what is happening to me right now. Job 1: 21 "and said, 'Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised."


looking for a job

Lord tulungan mo ako makahanap ng work. Napapagod na ako, lahat ng inaplyan ko walang reply. I keep on researching jobs but their job specifications is higher than I do have. What will I do Lord? Im tired, exhausted and needy... I need money Lord. Please help me.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

ang blog salamt may blog

tanging itong blog na ito ang saksi sa lahat ng sama ng loob ko. narito nakasulat kung sino ako, what concerns me, even my limitations - ung mga super weaknesses ko.

ngayon, ito ang nararamdaman ko:
1. galit ako sa mundo, feeling ko kasi wala na akong pagasa
2. galit ako sa mga in-laws ko dahil wala silang pakialam imbis na makatulong sila pa ung number 1 na nangaapi i dont feel like i belong to this family, do i exist? maybe not. am i important? important what's that?
3. galit ako sa mga taong nangiinis sa akin walang magawa kungdi ang manginis at manginis, so ganun.... ikaw na... di ka magpatalo.

i dont know how would i recover.... siguro in time.