Be Thankful

This year may not be the best year for me, well, in fact this is the most challenging one and it really was.

March 18 - loss my job; terminated due to false accusations

Lessons Learned: (1) don't be equally yoked with the unbeliever

(2) when God says, "Leave" just do it and keep trusting

Apr - May - 3 months of job hunting; exerted efforts turned no good results either over or under qualified until I see the rainbow.

July 4 - first day at work, thank God He did not give up on me

Dec 9 - receives a needs improvement on my career performance evaluation; given 6 months to prove myself again.

But on top of all these, I can still say, "Thank You Lord for Year 2011"

Love,

Rhea

it's my bestfriend's wedding day

Today is a very special day for my bestfriend, Earl Rogelio for
he is now exchanging vows to his lifetime partner, Roxanne.

He used to be my "bestfriend" for quite a long time but when we have already separated ways, we we're no longer in good terms. I tried to reach out for him but to no avail. He didn't even bother to accept my friend's request so for the last time I did took the courage again to greet him and his wife, Roxanne, on their very special day.

Truly, God is the best match maker. Even before I knew in my heart that our relationship won't last and I even told him that Roxanne will be his girlfriend and will be his wife soon and I was not mistaken, it did come true. I'm very happy for them.

To Earl and Roxanne, though it may be 0.01% percent you'll pass by this blog, I want you to know that I'm really blessed and happy for the both of you. Now that you are no longer two but one with the new level of love and commitment, I pray that God will always be the center of your relationship. May God continue to enrich your lives as you keep on being a blessing to others. God bless you more and more.

God bless Earl and Roxanne. Mabuhay ang bagong kasal!

final verdict

today I've felt a mixed of disappointed but highly motivated.

I''ve finally received my final verdict - final performance evaluation and it was not really good. I've failed the expectations of being a developer and as a result I will not be included for any salary adjustments. As I was walking home, these things keep lingering on my mind. At first, I was saddened and reflect on how I became like these. What's happening to me? Am I losing the confidence? I can still remember those times that I can speak at the top of my voice to the CEO of the company of which I am employed just because of his project mismanagement. And now, here I am, I am wearing the same shoes. I was not reprimanded, the final decision was delivered very well by my manager/team leader. I've felt I wanna melt down like wax or an ice cream under the scorching heat of the noonday sun, but unfortunately I was not.

Thank God He is the real source of strength, joy and peace. I know He is speaking a lot to me regarding my career development. It's high time for me to sit down, read books, practice programming, memorize and internalize on programming technicalities. Gone were the time that I became complacent, coming to office with one single code on my hand, with simple "select; MySQL statement" and with 'model-one' approach on coding.

I've realized time has past by, I can no longer bring back the time. All I have is the present because I cannot take hold of the future I don't know what could happen then, I can't even own it. Only God can. Now what I have to do is to find myself excelling on every area of my endeavor.

Here is my short-term goals:

1. finish SS exam until friday this week.

2. learn jquery and practice it in 1 week

3. learn silverstripe: advanced level in 2 weeks

4. learn programming design & patterns (e.g factory pattern)

How about the long term goals:

1. enroll at informatics about PHP and MySQL (Target Feb 2012)

2. enroll and passed the PHP Proficiency Exam (Target: December 2013)

"Wisdom is supreme; therefore get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, get understanding." - Proverbs 4:7

over a cup of coffee

it's been so long since my last post, hehehe. really get tired in updating my blog, actually no time at all.

i just wrote today to share a friend's poem. here it goes:

"There are things better left unsaid

As flowers bloom in season

But they say, God is not time-bounded

And He has His own reason.

There are things better left undone

Like our bed as we rise and shine

But they say, one must know

God's signal Yes or No but wait is fine.

There are things better left unanswered

Like a question tattooed on our face

But they say, our thoughts are not like the Father's

And we tend not to see His grace.

There are better things that we know Unsaid, unanswered, undone

But God says, watch as I overflow My grace to you My son. "

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the last step of journey

Today, I received a call from MicroSourcing @3PM informing me that I was privileged to fill up the position I am applying for. I was so silent in a few seconds, wasn't able to speak up a word, wasn't able to answer the floating question that Sir Paulo has given me which is about the status of my application with other companies.

I've been through a rigid screening from english exam down to the profile interview, technical interview with Sir Mark with a score of 18/20 and a final interview with the client - Daniel and Matthias. At last, God allowed me and have given me the strength to surpass them all. Again, I believe if it wasn't the will of God for me at this company I won't be able to pass each stage.

I was informed today that before my final employment, I had to pass my medical exam plus some background checking. While seating at the couch at the company's lobby, I am praying to God asking Him to give me a favor not to have the background checking. It was too hard for me to admit that I was terminated due to some false accusations that I wasn't able to defend myself due to financial shortcomings. All I ask the Lord, "Lord if it is your will for me to be employed here then spare me from background checking." and it was. Before I left the office, I was advised by Sir Paulo - the MicroSourcing Outsourcing Talent Specialist, that normally an employee should have passed the medical exam and background checking before any formal employment. But for this account, Web Guide Partner, they are not concerned with the background checking...whowww... praise God. I smiled in my heart and while walking back home I was praising God- thanking Him on how He have orchestrated everything.

If I pass the medical exam, I believe that it is the will of God. Again, my faith will be tested. If I win then it is for me. Lord, I know wherever you landed my feet, it is the best place I could ever be. I love You Lord. I give you back all the glory, honor and praise.... Hallelujah....

Dr. Jose Rizal - isang tunay na bayani

Sa araw na ito ay holiday sa Pilipinas dahil ating ipinagdiriwang ang kaarawan ng ating dakila at pambansang bayani si Dr. Jose Potenciano Rizal. Nawa'y hindi lang natin basta idaos at ipagkasiya ang araw na ito kundi ating panatilihin ang pagbibigay halaga sa kanyang mga naging sakripisyo para sa kalayaan ng ating bansa.

"Sisikapin kong maging isang tunay na Pilipino, sa isip, sa salita at sa gawa." hango sa Panatang Makabayan.

Nawa saan man ako idako ng Panginoon, dito man o sa ibang bayan, manatiling buhay ang aking pagiging isang tunay na Pilipino "sa isip, sa salita at sa gawa". God bless the Philippines!

I'm still standing

Yes, I'm still standing - standing by the grace of God. I'll keep sowing because I believe God will make it grow. Thank you Lord for a new job.