Joy in Every Tear, Victory in Every Defeat

This phrase lingers to my mind today and I decided to post it here.
I have experienced the "not so good times" in business, but still I don't want to give up. I still have to believe that things will get better and better each day as it passes by. I know its been too hard, it's been causing me a lot of pain and pressures. I need to meet deadline to receive my client's payment, so I asked God to give me the grace and strength to accomplish all these things before the end of December 2009.

If things will not turn out right this month, I have plans to get employed for the next two (2) years whether local or abroad. Then I'll save money for business. My heart's deepest desire is to become a Boss or a Manager or a Chief Executive, I don't want to stay as an employee. I want to master my own time. I want to earn more than an ordinary employee could earn. I want to have more money, house and lot, cars - Silver VIOS 1.6GL and Captiva.

You know its not so easy getting into business. You've got to consider many things. You've got to decide and to be firm on the decisions you make whatever circumstances might come along the way. I have to face it. I have to be strong. I have to proove to myself that I can do it with God's abiding grace and abounding love. I am not asking God for money just only for myself, my family... I am asking God to let my business grow to help other people - to employ people, to give to the poor, to help build the church - in short to become a channel of His blessings.

After a talk to my business partner, I close my eyes and tears began to flow on my face and began to pray. "Lord, thank You that I will not cry anymore because of money. Thank You that You will bless us and let our clients pay us within this month. Bless mo na ako Lord, nahihirapan na ako. They can see me smiling but deep down in me something is wrong. I am crying and asking for help. Lord how I wish I could thresh out everything to a friend, but I'd rather not. I dont know if they can understand, help or make me feel ok, let You be my bestfriend. I love you and I believe You love me too."