Monday, May 9, 2011
looking for a job
Lord tulungan mo ako makahanap ng work. Napapagod na ako, lahat ng inaplyan ko walang reply. I keep on researching jobs but their job specifications is higher than I do have. What will I do Lord? Im tired, exhausted and needy... I need money Lord. Please help me.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
ang blog salamt may blog
tanging itong blog na ito ang saksi sa lahat ng sama ng loob ko. narito nakasulat kung sino ako, what concerns me, even my limitations - ung mga super weaknesses ko.
ngayon, ito ang nararamdaman ko:
1. galit ako sa mundo, feeling ko kasi wala na akong pagasa
2. galit ako sa mga in-laws ko dahil wala silang pakialam imbis na makatulong sila pa ung number 1 na nangaapi i dont feel like i belong to this family, do i exist? maybe not. am i important? important what's that?
3. galit ako sa mga taong nangiinis sa akin walang magawa kungdi ang manginis at manginis, so ganun.... ikaw na... di ka magpatalo.
i dont know how would i recover.... siguro in time.
ngayon, ito ang nararamdaman ko:
1. galit ako sa mundo, feeling ko kasi wala na akong pagasa
2. galit ako sa mga in-laws ko dahil wala silang pakialam imbis na makatulong sila pa ung number 1 na nangaapi i dont feel like i belong to this family, do i exist? maybe not. am i important? important what's that?
3. galit ako sa mga taong nangiinis sa akin walang magawa kungdi ang manginis at manginis, so ganun.... ikaw na... di ka magpatalo.
i dont know how would i recover.... siguro in time.
Friday, April 29, 2011
small room
why do i need to compress myself into a very small room? i need comfort daddy. i'm not asking for anything big i just need some extra space to put the refrigerator, washing maching, dining tables and food trolly. is it too majestic to ask for? is it too big to request for?
"i can't settle for anything less", yes thats true.
i know i deserve something better. wish that my life is just like a fairy tale. but it wasn't.
sometimes i came to this point, complaining of our small room in bonifacio's compound. wondering if i was really a part of this big family. am i really that important? were all my views seems to be considerate? do i really exist? i do not know
i am uncertain of what will happen after 10 years of paying the Php 6000 rental of a very small room. i miss our space in parkhomes, tunasan with 2 bedrooms, 1 large receiving area, 1 kitchen, 1 toilet and bathroom and 10 steps balcony. Lord is our stay here with my inlaws wrong? is it wrong? tell me.... i am renting... but i dont deserve the worth of my rent.
Lord help me, make me victorious over this matter.
"i can't settle for anything less", yes thats true.
i know i deserve something better. wish that my life is just like a fairy tale. but it wasn't.
sometimes i came to this point, complaining of our small room in bonifacio's compound. wondering if i was really a part of this big family. am i really that important? were all my views seems to be considerate? do i really exist? i do not know
i am uncertain of what will happen after 10 years of paying the Php 6000 rental of a very small room. i miss our space in parkhomes, tunasan with 2 bedrooms, 1 large receiving area, 1 kitchen, 1 toilet and bathroom and 10 steps balcony. Lord is our stay here with my inlaws wrong? is it wrong? tell me.... i am renting... but i dont deserve the worth of my rent.
Lord help me, make me victorious over this matter.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
after the rain...
after the rain...
comes rainbow displayed in the blue sky arrayed in all of its shining and beautiful colors.... this is what i feel, i wanna shout, i wanna celebrate, i wanna bring back to my normal life....
it was on march 24 @9AM when its the very first time I have experienced being interrogated by an attorney. I was interviewed in an administrative hearing for the false accusations and purely allegations. It so much hurt on my side because with good faith I have performed well in my job, I may not be perfect but I tried to be one but at the end I was in front of an attorney explaining myself for no cause.
almost 6 days of no apetite as if food just want to follow the flow, eating without taste, drinking without quenching the thirst, sleeping but not resting.... it's so hard, it's so fearing, it's so disappointing, it's so humiliating.... how i wish i was never ever ever in my life that it did happen to me. but on top of all this, God is still to be praised.
i've read a book "When Crisis Hits You: Tasting God's Goodness In Bitter Times" while waiting for my friends to arrive at meeting place. it touches my heart with this line "nothing happens at random or by chance. nothing is without purpose. we may not know the purpose of our suffering now but not knowing the purpose does not mean there isn't any. however difficult life may be, faith requires that we stay loyal to God even in the midst of our pain." All I can say Lord, I'm laying all these things to You, take full control.
As I am sitting on a bench at Trinoma, I am looking at the blue sky while singing "To God be the glory, to God be the glory, to God be the glory for the things he has done...." I was so deeply moved by the Holy Spirit during those times and I was even crying while a lot of people were noticing my tears are beginning to fall on my face. I said to myself, "I don't care, you don't know how much I was hurting earlier but now I am rejoicing because my Lord and King have saved me and restored me back again...." These sweet words keep lingering on my mind, these words strike my heart, awakens me and deepens my relationship to Jesus.
Truly, God knows what's best for us. He knows the start until the end. If only I learned to completely entrust to Him everything even if I don't see things clearly as the way I wanted to be let this phrase ablaze in me... "Lord let my heart be still and quiet - to be near you even after the rain..."
comes rainbow displayed in the blue sky arrayed in all of its shining and beautiful colors.... this is what i feel, i wanna shout, i wanna celebrate, i wanna bring back to my normal life....
it was on march 24 @9AM when its the very first time I have experienced being interrogated by an attorney. I was interviewed in an administrative hearing for the false accusations and purely allegations. It so much hurt on my side because with good faith I have performed well in my job, I may not be perfect but I tried to be one but at the end I was in front of an attorney explaining myself for no cause.
almost 6 days of no apetite as if food just want to follow the flow, eating without taste, drinking without quenching the thirst, sleeping but not resting.... it's so hard, it's so fearing, it's so disappointing, it's so humiliating.... how i wish i was never ever ever in my life that it did happen to me. but on top of all this, God is still to be praised.
i've read a book "When Crisis Hits You: Tasting God's Goodness In Bitter Times" while waiting for my friends to arrive at meeting place. it touches my heart with this line "nothing happens at random or by chance. nothing is without purpose. we may not know the purpose of our suffering now but not knowing the purpose does not mean there isn't any. however difficult life may be, faith requires that we stay loyal to God even in the midst of our pain." All I can say Lord, I'm laying all these things to You, take full control.
As I am sitting on a bench at Trinoma, I am looking at the blue sky while singing "To God be the glory, to God be the glory, to God be the glory for the things he has done...." I was so deeply moved by the Holy Spirit during those times and I was even crying while a lot of people were noticing my tears are beginning to fall on my face. I said to myself, "I don't care, you don't know how much I was hurting earlier but now I am rejoicing because my Lord and King have saved me and restored me back again...." These sweet words keep lingering on my mind, these words strike my heart, awakens me and deepens my relationship to Jesus.
Truly, God knows what's best for us. He knows the start until the end. If only I learned to completely entrust to Him everything even if I don't see things clearly as the way I wanted to be let this phrase ablaze in me... "Lord let my heart be still and quiet - to be near you even after the rain..."
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Prov 10:3
"The Lord does not let the righteous go hungry but he thwarts the craving of the wicked." - Proverbs 10:3
Even the food, basic need ng tao, i-po-provide ng Lord how much more ung iba nating pangangailangan. Lord thank you sobra sobra ang pagmamahal mo sa akin at sa lahat ng iyong nilalang.
I love this verse Lord, and panghahawakan ito until eternity because I know you will prove it to me all the days of my life.
Even the food, basic need ng tao, i-po-provide ng Lord how much more ung iba nating pangangailangan. Lord thank you sobra sobra ang pagmamahal mo sa akin at sa lahat ng iyong nilalang.
I love this verse Lord, and panghahawakan ito until eternity because I know you will prove it to me all the days of my life.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
A Test of Faith
Lord, I am telling you honestly I don't like this feeling - feeling of being betrayed by a friend.
Help me to focus on You and not on the problem; to see how You have sustained us during the tough times I have before. I know and believe that You will keep your promise.
thank You Lord, I love You Jesus.
Help me to focus on You and not on the problem; to see how You have sustained us during the tough times I have before. I know and believe that You will keep your promise.
thank You Lord, I love You Jesus.
Friday, December 10, 2010
Sweet Moments with Dadi Felix
We are so thankful we had a chance to watch Gary V Live Concert at Eastwood Mall Open Park last December 10, 2010. We went there at exactly 7:00PM and it was an energetic concert experience;
My husband really liked Gary V. He even watched some of Gary V's concert during his bachelor days. (He was not able to watch it all since he worked overseas for a couple of years.) I had a chance to see him having a sound check few hours before the concert schedule; and I can't imagine it was the real "Mr. Pure Energy". I bought a CD for Dadi Felix for a guaranteed seat and it really was. Thank God for the blessing!
Not only that, I have given a privilege to line-up for live autograph. The "Mr. Pure Energy" even reiterated my name and greeted me a "God Bless" and a "Merry Christmas Rhea!". It's my first time to experience such and am so happy yet thankful. Again, thank You Lord.
All I can say, "Thank You Lord for such a wonderful blessing to us. We can enjoy our life and have it to the fullest. I love You LOrd."
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